Happy

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world
just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

(Happy- Leona Lewis)

The Big 2-6!

Am I really 26 years old? At heart, I still feel like I'm 22. When I tell people how old I am turning, 26 just doesn't roll off the tongue as smoothly as the early twenties did. BUT, there is no stopping the aging process... so I guess I better just learn to deal with getting older. As my dad would say, "Getting old is not for wimps!" Here's to another year full of great (and not so great) experiences.

Also, don't be surprised to find out that many other people have this same birthday! It is a great day to be born =)

What the HECk is That?????

SO my roommate thought this would be a lovely addition to the kitchen. Seriously??All I keep thinking is it's some kind of VooDoo doll!

Secrets-

If we knew each others' secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins

I heard this today and it made me think how true it is. If were were all a little more open and honest with one another, then think about how much pain we can avoid. When we start to keep secrets, then it only leave people assuming.... Assuming she's happy, assuming he's a cheater, assuming she likes the guy. Assuming only leads to negative outcomes. Don't get me wrong- there might be a time and place to keep a secret, but from my experience, it only brings DRAMA!!!!! By revealing our secrets, it allows others to help us out.

Blushing...

It never fails that if the attention is focused on me, I turn bright red. It's not that I am embarrassed most of the time, I think I just feel exposed. I usually just try to blend in. There are time when I like to stand out, but for the most part, I'm not one to jump to the center of attention. I bring this up because people love to comment on my blushing. Some girl mistook someone else for me and then had to correct herself. Instead of her being embarrassed, I was the one who turned red. Of course, she was like, "I didn't mean to make you blush." I had to inform her that it doesn't take much for me to turn red!!!! I just hate it when people have to announce that I am bright red. All the guys I have dated never failed to bring up my blushing. In my classes, there is always someone that comments on my redness. Don't these people realize that I KNOW I AM BRIGHT RED??? It only makes matters worse when they draw attention to it. There have been moments when it's so bad that I have to hide my face. I wish I could control it, but I can't. Also, I turn red when I am teaching. I absolutely hate blushing at that moment because the students assume I am weak... so not cool. I will be cursed forever with my blushing, red face.